My name is Nicholas Tanek and I am a writer in my late 30’s. I grew up as a New Jersey punk rock skater weirdo who also got involved in the New York City rave scene during the early 90’s. I fell into hardcore drug addiction but recovered. I am also somewhat involved in the New Jersey / New York BDSM fetish community. I like to think that I choose positivity over negativity so, I try to be creative and write. I write real stories, change the names, and just label them as fiction. So, in other words, you never know… I may write about this interview in one of my books.
My books are true stories with some names changed and labelled “fiction.” I like to think that I have met so many interesting and fascinating people. As I look back, I’m surprised I’m not dead. I have done a preposterous amount of hard drugs. I have been involved with criminals. I have known people in the BDSM fetish community. Why should I make up characters and events when I have all this material that I have experienced myself? Any book I write will be a tribute to someone, most likely a woman. The Coolest Way to Kill Yourself was my very first book. It is a tribute to the love of my life who died at the age of 37. She died from complications from years of abuse, complications from ovarian cancer, and liver failure. Chipped Black Nail Polish is a prequel and it is a tribute to the very first love of my life.
How did you get into writing?
I have always been writing stories, ever since I was a kid. I wrote three screenplays when I was in middle school. They were garbage, but the effort was there. Professionally, sometimes, I do some ghostwriting and music journalism. Still, Lynn inspired me to write The Coolest Way to Kill Yourself. In high school, I would write poems and stories for women I liked. Lynn would get sad and say, “No one writes anything for me. Why doesn’t anyone write anything for me?” So, when the love of my life passed away, I decided to write something for the girl who thought no one would write anything for her.
What do you think makes your writing stand out?
The honesty of it and willingness to let myself be vulnerable. I admit to so many things in my books. This includes drugs, crime, and fetishes. I talk about my true experiences with BDSM and fetishes and I get very candid. I deal with fetishes such as Femdom, male chastity, and other things too. Also, I do not write for money so, that changes things. I want to create good books that stay with the reader long after they read it. I see many authors out there who publish books and it is obvious that they think that a certain subject or genre will make them money. That’s sad. So any book from me is definitely going to be honest and from the heart.
What’s your greatest fear as a writer?
That I won’t be inspired anymore.
What tips would you give aspiring writers?
Write. Just write. Even if you write 10 pages of garbage, you may get one magnificent sentence or even a good idea. Be honest! Be true to yourself. Do not write just to sell books. Write because you are creating art. Finally, for the love of everything that is cool… BE ORIGINAL.
What’s next for you?
Well, I am promoting Chipped Black Nail Polish and I am currently working on a sequel to The Coolest Way to Kill Yourself, which is really a tribute to the wonderful and weird people I have met in the New Jersey / New York BDSM fetish community. It’s not a romance novel. It’s not masturbation material. Still, it is filled with sexuality, fetishes, and BDSM. The working title is The Good Kind of Pervert. Like my other books, it is about embracing the weirdo inside you without shame or fear.
A tribute to a different kind of Jersey girl.
In New Jersey during the summer of 1989, an awkward thirteen-year-old who was obsessed with weird music fell head-over-heels in love with the coolest post-punk rock girl he had ever met. Nicholas was insecure. He was a daydreamer, wishing for romance when he was told, over and over, that he could not have it. He was a toy, pulled and pushed, wanted and used, dragged along yet held at a distance. Nicholas fell in with the out crowd, and loved every minute of it. He fell in love and got left behind, but not before she changed him forever.This is an irrational, emotional love story for the teenager inside all of us. The music is loud, and you’re about to be pushed into the pit.